I’ll start with being honest, my title is completely untrue. I kept a blog when I was traveling to keep friends and family up to date on what I was up to, but the whole “here’s what I did today” is not what I’m going to aim for here.
What am I going to aim for, you might ask. I haven’t the faintest idea. I absolutely want to be a journalist, and the advice I get most often that I don’t follow is “start a blog,” as though what’s keeping me from career success is random thoughts put in a public forum. Don’t get me wrong, I get it. Coming up with interesting things to write on a regular basis, hone your writing skill, and find a way to be approachable to readers all online are all skills I need. But what the hell do I write about?
When most people ask me why I don’t, I usually say something like this (imagine with pretentious intonation):
“I don’t really care for blogs [nose in the air]. It’s just endless commentary, and from whom? It’s just another facet for self-indulgence on the internet, like we need another one [derisive laugh]. It’s just another example of how journalism today is giving way to commentary rather than news. Now if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to chat about current events with my peers pretending I read the New York Times even though I get my news from the Daily Show.”
Maybe this isn’t an exact quote, but you get the idea. This is kind of true, but I’ve make quite an ass of myself. Not to mention, some blogs that are well read can be because they pander or initiate strong emotion. However, many are clever, well written, and even well researched.
So what’s with the ‘tude, Colleen? It’s simple. I get snooty and argumentative when feeling defensive. I just doubt my ability to write interesting and clever things, especially without sounding self-indulgent.
Rather than getting too deep in my self-conscious yet superior way of thinking, this blog is going to be the first step to getting over myself and start thinking about who I want to be and how I’m going to get there. So there it is, out on the table. I’ll just keep writing crap until I figure out how to write well enough. Or I’ll just continue with my attitude, get lazy about the blog, and just sell out and work in Public Relations instead. Stay tuned!